CC Ādi 4.249

ei mata anubhava āmāra pratīta
vicāri’ dekhiye yadi, saba viparīta
Word for word: 
ei mata — in this way; anubhava — affectionate feelings; āmāra — My; pratīta — understood; vicāri’ — by consideration; dekhiye — I see; yadi — if; saba — everything; viparīta — contrary.
Translation: 
“In this way My affectionate feelings for Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī may be understood, but on analysis I find them contradictory.